Somehow my conversation with a friend turned to the topic of "letting go". Our conversations are always interesting because despite how bull-headed we both are about our extremely contrasting perspectives, our mutual understanding and respect for the struggles we have both endured always leads to an intense-but-respectful debate. Friend: "...I've explained this to you before. … Continue reading Thoughts on letting go
When I went through my rough patch last year, it was hard to find anything that inspired me. Or made me laugh at the very least. One day my sister managed to persuade me out of bed and made me watch some of her favorite YouTube videos, which despite the age difference we have (she's … Continue reading How it feels when a dream comes true
After two weeks I finally had session and boy was it *grounding*. I really took advantage of the safe space between my therapist and I and articulated everything I've been feeling: I immediately confessed how truly out of sorts I've been feeling...going so far as to not even recognize myself physically. This true disconnect affects … Continue reading Post session thoughts
For the past week I've been struggling to find myself. To remember who I am, what I normally look like, how I normally act? And I think putting it into words right now is a step in the right direction. If you've been keeping up with my previous posts (or not because it doesn't really … Continue reading Is this disassociating?
Not entirely alone. I did have to go to work and interact with people. What I mean is I spent a lot of time with myself. In my last post I talked about becoming dependent on my boyfriend/friend's company to avoid being alone with my thoughts and as FUN as that road can be sometimes, … Continue reading I spent my week alone and this is what happened.
This week I have failed fabulously at keeping up with any kind of emotional checking in, mainly focusing on my outward appearance and dealing with the anxiety and depression that comes with overly obsessing about my body. Many hours were spent in bed. Many meals were binged. Much hygiene was overlooked. BUUUUT I won't overlook … Continue reading Mornings are for coffee and contemplation
Last night's reflection and just setting time aside for myself to reconnect with myself left me with some quality clarity this morning. This strong sense of peace is foreign but I am relishing it and want to share it with anyone that needs it today: Today is new. If you're anything like me (anxious, depressed, … Continue reading Mornings are for coffee & contemplation